Friday, 3 November 2017

Depth

This is a homage to female species


It's a known fact they mature faster. While boys are still catching spiders, girls have blossomed into young women. Then as boys fall for the "hottest" girls, the really far sighted young women are already assessing which boy will become the best man to provide and care for her. Call it women's instincts but there is nothing to match their ability to peer beneath the surface and discern the true depth of the human soul.


In M, it is all true. She is petite. She is beautiful. But do not for one mistake her for a soft fragile flower. She is anything but.


She has taken hard knocks in her life, some courtesy of her cavalier dad who let go of the wheels and allowed her to fall off the bicycle and scrape her knees. Indeed, there was a time where every scar on her was a result of this "let's see if you can do it on your own" style of raising a kid. 


Then there are the knocks delivered by a loving Mom, who true to the Chinese maxim of "to beat is to love", did what she had to do to instill discipline in a wilful little girl.


As a 3 year old, M's strong will was already known to us. We had sent her to a nursery about a km from our apartment. Most of her classmates were also from the Neighbourhood, some as nearby as living next door. She was picked up my our helper, F who would wheel her home in the pram. Something got into the head of this 3 year old as she observed her friends walking home and she resolved to do the same. So one day, out of the blue , she proclaimed that she too would walk home. Now, 1000m on those little legs are like a marathon. Yet, she never wavered from her decision. Determination drove her on the last bit of the walk but on she went until she collapsed in a heap at our front door. 


On her own two feet and on her terms, M could take the knocks.


Some knocks are even burned out of good intentions and outcomes. Like not wanting to betray her loyalty to one team and therefore not getting into another. Like having an elder sibling who could and would accomplish much and set the benchmark. She took these all in her stride and developed admirable ways of coping.


When not part of a team's activity, she would make sure that her time is occupied just as meaningfully. Just last month, she travelled all by herself (by bus and plane) back to my hometown to spend the weekend with her grandparents (who were overjoyed to have her all to themselves). In one trip, she showed independence, toughness and love.


Let me conclude this happy note about M where I started. A woman knows what lies beneath because they too have immense depth underneath their soft exterior. For M, under those soft waves lie a character as great as the alps.


And it is to this character that I dedicate this piece of art aptly titled sub-alpine (which she herself felt a kinship to last weekend).


 I have no doubt she will continue to find strength in the peaks and valleys of her soul that will continue to keep her happy.

Sunday, 22 October 2017

Note to my 20 year old self


I am writing to you from the future.

You are an ambitious young man, full of life and passion, and as you contemplate what will come, allow me to share with you what roads to take as well as what not to do.

Through your own effort you have got yourself into a good university and are surrounded by new friends. Yes, you still miss the friends you made in junior college and even some of the ones in high school. But you are never one for dwelling in the past. However good that was, we have to live in the present and move on to the future.

My first advice to you is to continue to enjoy your days on campus. You have already taken the opportunity to do things you dreamed about: play in a rock band, play rugby and various other sports you enjoyed in the Varsity Games. The university is like a microcosm of the world. Everything that is out there in the “real world” is available (in safe mode) on campus. So, the learning you acquire in University is not just about your course of study but also about life, including how to be responsible for yourself and others. Be curious and try as many of these activities esp. those you are passionate about. For instance, you may not know this yet but the musical you wrote and produced will be performed to a sold out crowd! I will tell you now that these activities will play a big role in job interviews to come as prospective employers find these accomplishments different and exciting.

Speaking of jobs, your hunt for one will not be easy. You will apply to many. Some will reject you outright. Quite a few good companies will call you up for interviews but the only job offer you will get is with S. The learning here is that beyond your CV which is what the companies base their call-up on,  in these interviews they are looking for real examples that you are interested in them and the world, that you can apply your knowledge, that you can get things done (either as an individual and more importantly as a team player). In other words, go to these interviews and express yourself fully, with purpose, honour and courage. The people you will meet do not know you and unless you express yourself, they will not know you enough to give you a job.

When on your job, take a longer term perspective. Market conditions, political circumstances and the global environment are in a flux. Nothing will ever go exactly as planned. So, there will be ups and downs. But so long as you understand what you are aiming to accomplish (for yourself and for the company) in the long run, say 5 years out, even a failure in near term will be acceptable. Especially if you turn it into a learning and adapt the journey forward. No experience is ever wasted. In the words of Winston Churchill, “failure is never fatal; success is never final.” Indeed, if given a choice to choose amongst recruits in the future, I would always pick the one who has failed and rise and rise again each time. Indeed, your lessons from the successes and failures in S and then in A will be the key reasons why you got into B and rose quickly therafter.

Fourthly, a whole range of disappointments will befall you. It is inevitable because there are too many variables outside our control. Consequently, how you progress in the organization may seem underwhelming. Let me forewarn you that you will be first assigned to Bangkok, and then Ho Chi Minh City, while your colleagues get Hong Kong, London postings. The miracle of this is being posted to these Southeast Asian stations will serve you far better in the future. When in the running to be the Head of Southeast Asia for B, your knowledge of these markets will be of obvious importance. In other words, all the dots in your life will and do connect. You will however not see it as such, in the moment, when you are looking forward. We can only see it connecting looking backwards. So, have faith, my young friend that divine intervention is always at work. This doesn’t mean you can sit back and do nothing. My tips above need to be acted upon and you can then be assured God will take care of the rest.

Which brings me to my final point of advice in this letter. Around this time, you will meet the love of your life. Of all the divine interventions, this is the most uplifting one. She will catch your eye with her bohemian style: short hair, wooden ear rings and earth tone clothes. You will see her in the canteen. You will see her in the computer lab. You will write to her (with inspirations from the heart) and leave these poems on her bulletin board anonymously. You will pluck up the courage to reveal yourself. You will discover a shared interest in photography. You go on a “date” cum photography field trip with her. You will prepare a mix tape for her. The two of you will fall in love. She will embrace the faith and indeed be the rock at home in years to come. By the way, I should add that this is not your first love. I know you have already been disappointed romantically before. This one, however, is forever. God will make sure of it. Have faith.

 

Tuesday, 26 September 2017

Writing, privately and publicly

My good friend, P, just celebrated his 49th birthday and decided to start blogging. An appropriate juncture to do so: to reflect and express one's thoughts as the half century mark nears.

My half century mark is even nearer than P's. That said, I started this blog more than three years ago so have had the chance to record some of my thoughts already.

My blog though is relatively private or as private as postings on the internet can be. I have also written publicly, most notably for a cutting edge business paper, The Edge. Most recently, I wrote about my belief in my home country. They say the pen is mightier than the sword and my words are aimed at those who can make a difference.

Photo credit: Montblanc

The lighthouse moment is actually when I was 42. I had a year long column, and called it, "42". Here are the collection of essays featured there, and then some.

Jan 25th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/can-we-regain-our-competitive-edge

Feb 22nd, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/man-street-can-malaysians-think

Mar 1st, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/what-malaysia%E2%80%99s-true-sustainable-source-advantage

Apr 5th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/are-we-afraid-breaking

May 3rd, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/how-will-party-end

Jun 7th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/what-our-culture

Jul 5th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/can-we-make-it-happen

Aug 2nd, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/have-we-lost-faith

Sep 4th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/do-we-have-courage

Oct 4th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/do-we-have-plan

Nov 1st, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/so-now-how

Dec 6th, 2010
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/who-42

Mar 7, 2011
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/learning-us

May 21, 2012
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/we-need-responsible-economic-leadership-even-more-0

Jul 9, 2012
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/lessons-penalty-shootouts-0

Dec 24, 2012
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/and-we-lived-happily-ever-after

Nov 17, 2014
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/special-report-asean-rising-preparing-integration

Sep 7, 2015
http://www.theedgemarkets.com/article/viewpoint-i-believe-malaysia

... as well as two other "life lesson" oriented interviews in Straits Times and The Peak.

June 2, 2013
https://sites.google.com/site/myhomeincyberspace/investment/08---real-life-stories/small-town-boy-learnt-to-dream-big

Mar 24, 2016
http://thepeak.com.my/interviews/a-model-of-management/

I will continue to write, because ideas, especially those well expressed, can have the power to change the world.

Tuesday, 22 August 2017

A New Chapter

When D returned to full time work earlier this year, I gifted her a fountain pen, with the inscription "writing new chapters". The plural description emerged naturally, but right now it seems so prescient. Because a couple of months after starting work, we are experiencing another wonderful new chapter.

We are right now with J, on a 28-hour (32 if you count door to door yet it didn't feel too long at all as we wanted to maximise our time with him in this) journey to USA, where he will spend the next 4 years studying. 20 and a half years ago, we were simply overjoyed to have him as our son, named after the grace of God. Indeed, there were some signs that were noted. The biggest influence, however, is D brought him up well - right from the Michelin baby start to the asthmatic sickly child phase to the officer and gentleman he now is - and guide him still. Even our domestic help, F, cared for him. He has good role models (including doting grandparents and uncles & aunts) and he is a natural leader with a kind soul. 

Photo credit: Happyologist via Pinterest
Like Nelson Mandela, he never settled for playing it small. As a young boy, he would generously offer our home to be the gathering place for his friends and our things to be the materials for their projects. As he got older, he gave them freely of his time, his strength, his knowledge and always his care.

Truth be told, that is a great accomplishment in one so young. I had mentioned somewhat whimsically that everyone should learn this wisdom by age 42 (the famous number that is the answer to Douglas Adams' question about life, universe and everything). That J understood this at half the time means that he is twice the man!

So here we are, accompanying this young man, a scholar, a soldier, a son to his new chapter. When he chose the course of study and the university, he had a heart to heart chat with me. He explained his purpose for why he chose the course. He explained his circumstances for why he chose the school. I had something else in mind but at the end of the day, I knew he made the right decisions. He has taken some of my paths, such as scouting, and having exceeded them he is right to now take his own. For he is not just his own man, he is a good man. 
 
It is not surprising many of his friends came to see him off: his classmates, his gang, his fellow commandos.

 
While in Durham, in the Duke Gardens, appropriately, we get to experience one of nature's wonders: an eclipse of the sun. So befitting for J who is about to embark on environmental studies and in due course to apply his knowledge for the benefit of more of us. Right now, we wish him well with all our hearts. (In fact, straight from my heart, I made an eclipse poster and inscribed it with the serenity prayer specially for him to change the world courageously, but also with wisdom to accept with serenity things he cannot change, such as Mother Earth's cycle including the eclipse)
 
Photo credit: Duke Event Calendar

As a wee lad, no more than ten, J liked the band Simple Plan and one of their anthemic songs, Welcome To My Life. Now living away from home in a foreign land, he is truly beginning a new chapter of his life, and we can only wish him much adventure, education and happiness in all the new things he will now experience. 
 
Photo credit: Musicnotes.com

There will be many new chapters, M going to university, J's graduation, significant others, our eventual retirements. For now, this one is deeply meaningful, even emotional.

Sunday, 30 July 2017

Big decisions

How many of these have one taken over my lifetime? How many of these does one need to get right?

I was with my sis A last weekend. She had moved her family to Melbourne, very much for the sake of the kids and their education. I asked my 10 year old niece what she thought of the schooling system in Australia, and she felt that it was less academically inclined but more holistic.

I am now keenly exploring the implications from the digital disruption phenomenon to society. One of the danger spots is indeed that the education systems of today are not quite producing people who can thrive (ie being gainfully productive) tomorrow. Most tasks can and will be automated. Those who will do well in the future are those who can function beyond the tasks, ie make the connections within the system or better still design the systems. Education today therefore has to evolve, and produced less students who master tasks from rote learning but those who can creatively connect the dots.

So, my sis and her husband have made a big decision right. It's never easy to uproot a family, but as a minority ethnic group in a still not racially integrated country, the push factor is also high.

Then again, we come from a long line of migrants. Firstly being Hakkas where the very name of our ethnic group suggest we are not local to the place we were living in. My grandfather was a migrant.

photo credit: humanosphere.org


As for me, I have made several similar big decisions, including also moving my family to another country, as well as taking leaps of faith in career moves. However, the way one goes about making this decision differs. But for me and D, and even J and increasingly M, we use a decision matrix. It's our training from management consultancy or even our grounding in information science. Break the decision down into key parameters, weight each parameter and score the competing options.

This form of rational decision making does require one to be unemotional. And to me, that is the magic of making big decisions. It's all about trusting the thinking process.

Mind over the heart in this case. Over dinner last night, M asked me about loneliness and I repeated a a construct I have held dearly: that being alone and being lonely are completely different things. One can be lonely even when amongst friends and vice versa. The key is the active, even proactive intent. If spending time alone is what you'd like to do, then do it and you won't feel lonely. if you don't want to be alone, then mingle and that act would ensure you won't be lonely.

But doesn't all these just make us more like the AI-infused machines and robots that are threatening to disrupt us? Well, yes and no. And no in three respects: we think to overcome melodrama (and the fact that we are sentient makes us special), we think differentially on big vs small things (showing we know the difference and can see the long game) and finally we can think beyond the task (and we can see the big game).

Being able to out think the machines mean we can decide big and get them right every time!


Tuesday, 13 June 2017

New lands

It's been awhile since I had the thrill of setting foot on a country I've never been to before. The last time was 3 years ago in Brazil and Peru. There is something so thrilling to hear hitherto unheard of new languages, taste new foods and drinks and of course see new sights and meet new people.


The new land I am now in is Central Asia. Specifically, I am now in Uzbekistan. It's a eclectic mix, because of the geography and history, of Chinese, Arab, Mongol and Russian ethnicities and culture. I asked my guide, Alishev, why are there so many invaders? After all it is a landlocked country, albeit with spectacular mountain scenery and plenty of agrarian lands. It's because Uzbekistan is mineral rich, he told me. Land, platinum and gas are found here.


I don't know how these resources are being managed. It's far easier to do so poorly, and suffer the commodity curse than to do it right, a-la Norway. I'm here to meet the government and will surely share with them my precepts of economic development.


But there is one thing that is a leading indicator: the yearning of its people. I chose this words carefully. I could have easily described it as human capital, which generally is about the quality and quantity of the workforce in the country. But that's an outcome. The real input factor is hunger, or as I mentioned above, yearning. It's this yearning that causes one to work a bit harder, save a bit more, think about the future. For instance, here the labourers building/repairing the roads were all working, not watching as is so often the scene at these sites. All of these were neatly summarised in a roadside vendor from whom I bought some yoghurt balls from. She must have made it all herself, and she sat there on a rickety old table with her grandsons sharing her stories as she awaited customers, while her granddaughter is under the shade doing her schoolwork. This woman looked a bit like my maternal grandma, my original indomitable role model. And I always suspected the Hakka people had this central Asian way about them.


Just as importantly, and perhaps even more so, is that this yearning is layered with a spirit of neighbourliness. As I trudged my way to check out a waterfall, I passed a local family picnicking and was duly invited to join them. It's the same when we passed a Khimis (fermented horse milk spirit) stall. Although they were sold out, they engaged in friendly banter. Them in Uzbek, me in English, so what a banter it was 😀


These two are just great ingredients to build a nation with. That said, right now, there are lots of building to get on with. Take public transport for instance, it's practically non existent. Which means the people would have to rely on private personal modes of conveyance and timeliness then becomes a problem. It may be commonplace even acceptable in the everyday Uzbek life but once this culture of inefficiency sets in, it can be a real kink in the armour as was clearly in evidence early this morning to find an unmanned visa counter. Not exactly the first impression this beautiful and promising country should make on its visitors and investors.


Sunday, 11 June 2017

Timepiece

I Here I am, in the basement (Emergency room) of St Pau in Barcelona. It was once a hospital built spectacularly for the poor of the city. It is now an Art Nouveau site. Sited at the end of Avinguda Gaudi, it faces the awe-inspiring Sagrada Familia, which is expectedly overbooked. When I arrived there at 9:30am this morning, I was told that tickets for the day were all sold out but if I tried online I could probably get a 5pm entrance. So, on I went to St Pau. Equally interesting!


Even then I decided to go to the Sagrada Familia shop and get immersed into the imaginative world of Gaudi and ended up spending over a hundred euros. I didn't mind. It's such a wonderful mind he had, stuff of dreams. Sadly, so absorbed he was in his thoughts Gaudi feel victim to a tram accident here in Barcelona. A fact that didn't escape me yesterday as I too narrowly missed stepping onto the path in an incoming tram. These  city trams run on electricity and are silently dangerous. I was fortunate to have been with P and her Daughter in law L and they alerted me in time as we were making our way to Casa Leopoldo, an old 1929 restaurant now revived under a new owner. We had a thoroughly enjoyable dinner, to celebrate a milestone for me. You see, P is the owner of a watch boutique in Barcelona and has been my authorised dealer into the world of Patek Philippe, amongst others. It is on the occasion of getting myself a zenith marking Perpetual Calendar Chronograph that we were celebrating. 


It's actually a happy conjunction of two worlds, my love of horological pieces and my love of Travelling. It is so apt that these coincide in Barcelona, my Favourite city in Europe. It's fortunate that it's also a major meeting capital of the world and with many global conferences Organised here, I am here every other year or so. 


This trip however is a break in my two week business travel across Europe, Central Asia and the Middle East. I started on Monday flying out of Singapore to Copnehagen to meet my Nordics team to inspire them as they build their business there. Then I had a two-day global Practice Area Leaders meeting in Berlin and I took the opportunity to meet a client, the director general in charge of modernising the administration and the local leadership team, specifically to motivate them to stay the course, and giving some course correcting advice as well. I am heading to Tashkent and Riyadh next (both times having to transit via Istanbul). So to prepare myself for the hectic schedule ahead, I decided to spend the weekend here in Barcelona rather than flying back to Singapore. That I can pick up my milestone piece is a real bonus 😀.


Speaking of timepieces, this is perhaps the right time for me to share my story. 


I first got interested in it as a wee lad. Not for it's mechanical prowess or even to tell time. It made me feel mature, like a man. My dad had a few interesting pieces: Orient, Longines and i would be allowed to wear these. There are even photographs showing how I flash the watch at the camera to Ensure they are in view!


As I grew up, my teenage years were more about bicycles, motorcycles, in other words, wheels, rather than watches. 


The next juncture of my passion in watches was when I started working and there in Vietnam in the early 90's, there were lots of vintage Omegas. I got myself a couple of Seamasters and gifted one to my Brother who visited then. 


But then it petered out again as I settled in as a newly married man and all I needed was my good Wife. Not to mention a trusted Seiko SQ100: a quartz Chronograph which told the time accurately and looked sportingly good to boot!. it was D who rekindled my interest in watches when in return for a nice Omega Constellation I got her, she bought we a pair of Orises and a Sinn. 


It was around then that we were more comfortable and I started collecting, rather than just buying for need. Somehow D is a constant feature in this story. And indeed in many of my stories, as a good partner should. For it was her Friend C who is well connected in KL who introduced a good salesperson from Sincere Watch KLCC, S, and she really got me into some good pieces incl a 50th anniversary Omega Speedmaster.


But my real step up was when I invested in a watch I had coveted for its splendid looks, the A Lange & Sohne Lange 1 remake, the Daymatic. By then I had already a theme. I knew mechanical watches were the right ones to get, and I especially liked Chronograph and automatic watches. Kind of obvious. One was about timing speed (natural for a guy who also loved wheels) and the other was simply interesting  for its Perpetual machine nature. So, the collecting started in earnest from about 10 years ago and it's quite fitting that a decade and some 30 watches later (his and hers) I am now at this watch, which is widely acknowledged by the industry to be the pinnacle of high horology. Those who procure this watch has gone thru everything else, so says one industry insider. Maybe so. I do still like whimsical stuff. I like to go to the TOP, but I like to stay grounded and have some fun as well. 


Indeed, that is the same philosophy I take with my life and the lives of my family. 


Speaking of which, both of them recently just flew, for the first time in their lives. I mean literally... in the sky. With a parachute on their backs. J did his first jumps as a commando and traversed a thousand feet though the air. M did it on the back of a speedboat. 



If ever there was a moment where a parent could point to to signify when a child is ready to fly the coop, I certainly would point to last week when both J and M flew.


More importantly, how do we know, as parents, if we have done enough? We always knew the children would grow up and fly from the nest. It's the natural order of life. It's progress. 


For the past 2 decades we had them at home, and through good times and bad, sickness and health, joys and agonies, successes and defeats, we had our chance to calm them, comfort them, and also coach them. And through it all, we try to instill both deep roots and strong wings.


The most coachable moments are when they are down. Recently as M experienced some disappointment as she missed out on a leadership role, I tried to get her to rise again and to do so even higher, whereas D took the opportunity to get her to think less about herself but to be happy for others. Two sides of the same coin. We are so complementary in our parenting values and I hope that our children have benefitted from this balanced nurturing. 


There are other complementaries of course. My parents complete each other where one is a disciplinarian and never hesitating to use the cane, and the other completely indulgent. In our case, our spectrum is defined less by styles but by values. I am largely about aspiration, ie wings. D makes sure they can walk before they fly, ie roots. 


Now that they have both, it's up to them how they will live our advice. 


As for me, I am thoroughly enjoying my day in my Favourite European city. I re-traced my customary steps: walking down La Ramblas, stepping in Placa Real, running along the beach and enjoying great great food. May these loved ones fly as high as they wish, and stayed firmly rooted in strong values and every now and then stop and enjoy what Mother Earth and its humans has to offer: that they spend their time well



Friday, 5 May 2017

Her very first national finals!

After 5 years of playing the game, M and her team finally made it to the finals of the nationals, girls 'A' division at that! And they would play at the Kallang Diamond, home of the national team. What a way to cap her dedication to the game.

She has won in other tournaments before, notably in the ASEAN regional, with the Singapore u-15 team, and at the SRC earlier this year which served as a good warmup. But not with this team.


For 5 years, they harboured dreams of being national champions, they have not been. In fact, they have not even played in the finals, let alone win one. They haven't won it yet but they did get through the semifinals, against a good team, by 1 run! More poignantly, she had a wonderful hit that earned her team a run and got her to 3rd base. Way to go, my darling! I am so happy for her.

The fighting spirit is what it takes to get them here. The same fighting spirit that keeps them on edge could tear them apart as they jostle to win not just as a team but also as individuals. It's a lesson in life and I trust M will learn it well. How she gives and takes, leads and follows are valuable lessons. As she grows up, and as I found with her Brother, life is their teacher now. As parents, we only can hope that the foundation to continuously learn from and grow from life's lessons are well established.

Wednesday, 3 May 2017

Success v Happiness

D & I have been having this running (or rather trickling) discussion on which is the right aspiration to aim for: to be successful or simply to be happy. At another level, this question can be made more complicated: can one pursue success (in whatever field) and be happy?

It has been my life-long conviction that having and pursuing an aspiration defines the value of a human life. This is the result of having watched the majority of my fellow citizens live off the land and government handouts that they no longer have any hunger, and aspire for nothing more than a modified motorcycle, a guitar and a pair of jeans. They don't progress. Nor do the nation.

Then D threw a curved ball into my mind. She asked if despite this lackadaisical condition, they are actually happy. Conversely, those pursuing success, those with aspiration (fulfilled or otherwise), are they truly happy. Because wouldn't they keep wanting more. And hence are never satisfied and therefore never fully happy.

Both D and M sent me the same blog, authored by a 17 year old student.

https://rafflespress.com/2017/05/01/the-pressure-to-be-extraordinary/

The Pressure to Be Extraordinary

By Deborah Lee (17A01D)

Every year, approximately half of the Year 6 cohort score distinctions for all 4 H2 A Level subjects, and a quarter achieve a perfect University Admission Score. It would be a lie to say that most students do not feel a pressure to be part of these annual statistics, to be contributors towards the exemplary results that are often associated with the Raffles name. However, this pressure does not merely permeate the academic sphere alone, but extends much further into the future domain of career choices. This can particularly be seen through Career and Scholarship Days in Raffles usually boasting participating establishments that are mostly government organisations, ministries, and other prominent institutions. While this is far from unexpected, given the number of notable alumni in distinguished public service positions, it does give rise to the question of whether the career paths suggested for Raffles students are wider in certain directions, and narrower in other diverging routes.

An informal poll with 63 respondents found that 89% believed that there exists a pressure for Raffles students to find a conventional and well-paying job in the future. This likely includes jobs in law, the medical field, business, as well as with other prestigious organisations. The reason as to why this particular belief exists could perhaps be the extensive list of illustrious alumni, and the fact that year after year, many Guests Of Honour that are invited to grace school occasions are also part of this list. All of this serves to affirm the presumption that there is a tendency for alumni to undertake impressive careers after graduation, thus placing expectations on younger batches to continue the trend.

But what about the students who wish to follow less conventional career paths? Do they receive the affirmation that they should follow their dreams, or do they become weighed down by the typical expectations that come from being in this school? 12 fellow Rafflesians were asked about their dream jobs, in a scenario where they would not have to worry about practicality and finances, and answers ranged from bartending to becoming a Taekwondo coach.

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Upon first look at the above infographic, would you have associated the jobs with Raffles alumni?From a young age, we have been told that we should chase our dreams, but does that mean that once we become students of a prestigious school, our dreams should be tailored to fit a conventional mould that is deemed proper? Of course, certain arguments against this might be put forth, most particularly that large sums of money have been invested in our holistic education and in turn we should go on to give back as much as we can to society. The idea of this is usually fulfilled through taking up jobs in public service and other highly-skilled sectors that our quality education has enriched and equipped us for. Therein lies the pressure for Rafflesian students—given the amount of resources that have been allocated to our education, we then feel pressured to go into these jobs that are perceived as high-value added and fairly conventional.

We are definitely fortunate to be able to benefit from impressive campus facilities, dedicated staff, and various exchange and enrichment programmes. However, this does not mean that we, as a society at large as well as Rafflesians ourselves, should start viewing education as a transactional process: inputting resources and then churning out public service scholars and alumni with excellent credentials as the sole expected product. To do this would reduce education to a mere factory line production and further place stress on students to perform well by feeding into the notion that the ways in which we give back to society must necessarily be extraordinary– “Here, we’re giving you a good education, so you have to get good grades and a good job in future.” This in turn perpetuates the impression that the only concern that matters to students should be the credentials and prestige that come with the Raffles name, which shall then be used to find a fairly conventional but successful job in future. The issue with this is the persistent sense of obligation that weighs on the shoulders of every Rafflesian to become accomplished, outstanding, impressive: the pressure to be extraordinary.

The quality education that we receive definitely should not be considered unconditional, since we should indeed be grateful for the opportunities offered to us and give back to society in one way or another. Giving back, however, should not be interpreted as an action only accomplishable by those in high-paying jobs and prominent government positions. We can all give back in different ways, regardless of the jobs we do. The bookshop owner provides a safe haven for bookworms; the guitarist thrills listeners with the enchantment of music; and the traveller brings glimpses of a larger world to those stuck in an unmoving place. Giving back isn’t only done by CEOs, Ministers and those in highly respected positions; it is something that everyone can do as long as they make a conscious effort. The prestige of a job shouldn’t and doesn’t define your success as a person, and while it might be important to some, you don’t have to prioritise it if you are in pursuit of other aspirations.

There are days when we look at our marks, our grades, and perhaps wonder if we will eventually be able to live up to the Raffles name. We wonder if we can ever catch up with the straight A’s that are synonymous with our school’s reputation and move on to bag scholarships and high-paying jobs. It’s a constant worry, an incessant nagging at the back of our minds whenever we are reminded that A Levels are not a distant concern, but an impending threat. However, it’s all right if we don’t end up fitting in this mould. It’s all right if we don’t get an excellent set of grades, if we don’t move on to a job that we think is befitting of a Raffles alumni. 

Life is much bigger than the expectations placed on us during the few years of our teenage lives. We don’t need an extraordinarily big house, an extraordinarily flashy car, or an extraordinarily prestigious job to be happy. Yes, a conventional job does have its undeniable benefits, mainly the security that comes with a tested and stable career. However, a question we have to answer, is whether we are willing to trade our true passion for practicality.

Life will be full of risks that we have to take and it will admittedly be too short to regret the paths wanted, but not taken, because we feared impracticality and uncertainty. Perhaps, in order to pursue the passions close to our hearts, the risk is one that is worth taking.  To all the prospective bartenders, backpackers, and hairdressers out there, don’t feel guilty about wanting to pursue your dreams. True, you may have been fortunate to receive a good education, but don’t let the pressure force you to become someone bigger than you want to be.

A small, energetic spirit is sometimes better than a large empty shell, and there can always be something extraordinary found in all things seemingly ordinary.

I was asked what I thought. I shared three reactions:
1. It's very well written. Good logic with quantitative facts juxtaposed with emotionally compelling arguments
2. It ignored that RI has produced many who have chosen the path less taken and found fame (even infamy) eg Kit Chan, Stefanie Sun, Emma Yong and Pastor Kong Hee. So, it's not true that there are only a few chosen occupations. The larger point she missed is that Rafflesians are groomed to go to the heights of their professions whatever they may be.
3. The point that really resonated with me though is that one should not close off any options too soon. As kids, we could be anything. As college students, we start to narrow our choice set.  We don't have to. Go for whatever our hearts desire. Just make it a happy journey.

M liked my third point. The larger message in that point is it is possible to be happy if you want for nothing. It is however all the more fulfilling when we are pursuing something our heart desires, and we find it. That's happiness. The question therefore is, what does your heart tell you?


Friday, 14 April 2017

Easter gifts

We have always celebrated Easter as a family, rejoicing in the fact that Jesus rose from the dead. He showed us that our life on earth is but a moment in time. There is more, beyond. And that we need to spend our minutes and days well.

So this Easter, I wanted to make time visceral and to remind us that it is perpetual. Naturally, a self winding mechanical watch, powered only by the kinetic energy of the wearer, is a fitting gift.

But these gifts are more than just reminders of God's promise to us. They are also tokens of my love to both of you.

As you know, I am in the middle of an 8 city, 11 flight, 18 day round the world trip from Munich to Washington DC, then Riyadh and Dubai and back to KL and Singapore (where I am spending the easter weekend) and out again to Amsterdam and Berlin before returning to Singapore again.

Jet lag, red eye flights, unfamiliar rooms and uncomfortable pillows all conspire to make me miss you all more. Indeed, I already started longing for you as I was setting off to Munich knowing it'd be two weeks before I will see you again.

So there in this pretty catholic German city, I walked into the renowned watch retailer, Wempe, and bought a special watch for M. The Metro was a major milestone for Nomos; it was the first watch to feature a movement with the Swing Sytstem. Beyond that, the Metro Neomatik is simply a great watch with one of Nomos’ quirkiest designs (brought to life by famed industrial designer, Mark Braun).

And it is the design that reminded me of M. She has always possessed a great sense of style and I instinctively know she would agree with Mark Braun's creation, petitely made like she is: all simple elegance. What drew me even more to the watch is the night blue colour of its dial. It is the sheen of the deep sea. It is the shade of the night sky just before the stars shine the brightest. So when she looks at the watch, she can also imagine her dad who is often overseas as well as her brother who in due time will be halfway around the world. In short, it's a poetic colour, befitting M's creative (if sometimes moody) soul. Last but not least, her mom has the same watch (also a gift from me, being the 27th anniversary of our first date). Three good reasons why this watch is the best instrument to keep time for M!

I even wore this watch a few days on my trip so technically I am giving her my watch.

Similarly, for J, I wanted something special too and in the same value as the one I got for M, to be fair. Indeed, I have been looking for this watch since the start of the year when I first saw it. I finally found it in Dubai, fittingly for a newly promoted Lieutenant who needs to help keep peace in the world.

It's the baby Brother of a watch I just bought, though mine is in the signature green Color of the brand. This watch needs to be different.

He is a rugged chap and needs something that fits his lifestyle. So a watch that is meant to withstand diving the depths of the seas and yet bears the colour of the earth should serve the purpose. Indeed since getting him his first watch, a Luminox, he has shown good interest in timepieces and proceeded to buy two himself (one in Taipei and one online). I thought I should add to his collection with something quite special. According to HODINKEE (my Favourite watch review site), the Tudor Heritage "Black Bay Bronze is one of those watches that, whether intentionally or not, serves as a reminder that nowadays, a lot of us find it hard to settle down and make a commitment to That One Special Watch. The whole point of the Black Bay Bronze, I think, is to watch it gradually change, from one day to the next. Seeing the patina on the bronze slowly begin to darken the original, almost milky-gold hue of the bronze of the case is an enormous pleasure, taken one day to the next."
This is a watch that will become uniquely yours, as its patina develops based on how, where and who wears it. I thought it fitting that as J goes off to the US to study environment that he has a watch with a diamond second hand and snowflake hour hand. And as he exposes it to his environment, this watch will change its hues but fundamentally it remains a faithful keeper of time.  Indeed these are developments we wish on both M and J that they keep growing in their own unique ways but deep down inside remain rooted in their faith, and may this little piece of mechanical wonder on their wrist serve to remind them of the love all around.


Thursday, 16 March 2017

Confessions of a watch geek

At the start of 2016, I had a bad feeling. Time was not working right. Some weeks were as snappy as days, others were as elastic as months, and the months felt as if they were either bleeding into one another three at a time—Jabruarch—or segmenting into Gregorian-calendar city-states. Feb. Rue. Airy. Something was wrong with the world.

One day in February, I took a ride on the subway. This was a rare occurrence. Since turning forty, I’d started to suffer from a heightened sense of claustrophobia. A few years ago, I was stuck for an hour in an elevator with a man who weighed about three hundred and fifty pounds and his two grocery carts crammed with bags of Tostitos and bottles of Canada Dry, an experience both frightening and lonely. The elevator had simply given up. What if a subway train also refused to move? I began walking seventy blocks at a time or splurging on taxis. But on this day I had taken the N train. Somewhere between Forty-ninth Street and Forty-second Street, a signal failed and we ground to a halt. For forty minutes, we stood still. An old man yelled at the conductor at full volume in English and Spanish. Time and space began to collapse around me. The orange seats began to march toward each other. I was no longer breathing with any regularity. This is not going to end well. None of this will end well. We will never leave here. We will always be underground. This, right here, is the rest of my life. I walked over to the conductor’s silver cabin. He was calmly explaining to the incensed passenger the scope of his duties as an M.T.A. employee. “Sir,” I said to him, “I feel like I’m dying.”

“City Hall, City Hall, we got a sick passenger,” he said into the radio. “I repeat, a sick passenger. Can you send a rescue train?”
A rescue train. My whole life I have been waiting for one. Sensing the excitement of someone suffering more than they were, the other passengers moved to my end of the car to offer advice, crowding in on me and making me panic all the more. One man was particularly insistent. “I’m a retired firefighter,” he said. “I’ve been doing this twenty years, folks. Seen it all. This man here is hyperventilating. That’s what he’s doing. Twenty years a firefighter, now retired.”
“I’m going to take an Ativan now,” I said, fishing a pill out of my breast pocket.
“Do not do that,” the retired firefighter said. “It will only make you hyperventilate more. Trust me, I know what I’m doing.”
A middle-aged woman approached me. “You have to imagine,” she said to me, in a Polish accent, “that eventually the train will move. That eventually we will come out of the tunnel.”

Shamed into not taking the Ativan by the retired firefighter, I looked down at my wrist. I was wearing a new watch, the first mechanical watch I had ever owned. A brief primer: Since the late nineteen-seventies, most watches have used a quartz movement, which is battery-powered and extremely accurate. Mechanical watches, by contrast, are powered either by hand-winding or, in the case of an automatic watch, by the motion of the wearer’s wrist, which is converted into energy by means of a rotor. Mechanical watches are far less accurate than quartz watches, but often far more expensive, because their bearings are more intricate. All contemporary Rolex watches, for example, are mechanical. The difference between quartz and old-fashioned mechanical is that your child’s Winnie the Pooh watch will likely keep better time than a seventy-six-thousand-dollar Vacheron Constantin perpetual calendar in rose gold. A quick way to tell the two kinds apart is to look at the second hand. On a quartz watch, the second hand goose-steps along one tick at a time; on a mechanical watch, it glides imperfectly, but beautifully, around the dial and into the future.

Looking at the smooth, antiquated mechanical glide of my watch’s second hand, I felt, if not calm, then ready for whatever happened next. As the conductor’s radio flared on and off with promises from City Hall (my rescue train never came), as the passengers around me discussed my fate, I wondered: Can you hold your own world together while the greater world falls apart? The visible passing of time, second by second, seemed to provide a kind of escape route, even as my body remained within the metal shell of the stricken N train. Three seconds, inhale. Three seconds, exhale. The watch was a Junghans, from Germany, derived from a design by the Bauhaus-influenced Swiss architect, artist, and industrial designer Max Bill. I had bought it at the moma shop for what in my early, innocent watch days seemed like the astronomical price of a thousand dollars. Its no-frills, form-follows-function shape evoked civility in a time of chaos, a ticking intelligence in the face of a new inhumanity. The train slowly moved again. The Polish woman smiled at me. We shuddered into Times Square and I was, for a few moments in time, safe.



Every watch geek has an origin story. During childhood, my first best friend was a watch, a Casio H-108 12-Melody-Alarm. True to its name, the digital watch played twelve melodies, including “Santa Lucia,” “Happy Birthday,” “The Wedding March,” “Jingle Bells” (played only in the bathroom of my Hebrew school, when no other Jewish boys were present), and even a song from my native Russia, “Kalinka” (roughly, “Red Little Berry”), which I listened to every hour on the hour to make myself feel less homesick and scared. I spoke English miserably, but the watch had its own language, a computerese series of squeaks issuing from a tiny Japanese speaker to form passable melodies. My parents had bought me the watch at a Stern’s department store in Queens for $39.99, a significant part of their net worth at the time, and it was easily my favorite possession, until it caught the eye of a Hebrew-school bully. My grandmother marched into the principal’s office and used the hundred or so English words at her disposal—“Bad boychik take watch!”—to lobby for its safe return.

Eventually, I made human friends, and my musical Casio disappeared for good. My relationship with watches from that point on coincided with the women in my life. In high school, my mother bought me a quartz Seiko, which pinched my budding wrist hair with its loose gold-plated bracelet, and was a bit out of place at my next stop, Oberlin, where comrades were not encouraged to have gold-plated things. After college, a girlfriend bought me a Diesel watch with the image of at least six continents on its dial, to indicate just how “worldly” I was, and a subsequent girlfriend had it repaired after we had broken up, a gesture of unusual kindness.
But by this time I thought of myself as a writer, and, for a writer, the money you make can be traded in for your creative independence, hence one is permanently building a rainy-day fund. I have always tried to keep on hand enough cash to cover at least two years of expenses in case the public stops being interested in my work, while plowing the rest into low-cost index funds. Thrift was comforting; material goods uninteresting, bordering on gauche.

And yet on April 12, 2016, I walked out of the Tourneau TimeMachine store, on Madison Avenue and Fifty-seventh Street, with a receipt for $4,137.25 and a new Nomos Minimatik Champagner on my wrist, the sales clerks bidding me farewell with a cheerful cry of “Congratulations!” By the standards of luxury watches, the amount I spent was small indeed (an entry-level Rolex is about six thousand dollars), but by my own standards I had just thrown away a small chunk, roughly 4.3 writing days, of my independence. And yet I was happy. The watch was the most beautiful object I had ever seen. After my panic attack on the subway, the urge for another Bauhaus-inspired watch had become overwhelming, and I compared many brands. The winner was a relatively new watchmaker called Nomos, based in the tiny Saxon town of Glashütte.

An early-spring sun glinted off my watch as I walked down Lexington Avenue. I took a photograph of the Minimatik on my wrist, as if at any moment I would be forced to give it back. There is an entire genre of watch aficionados who take photos of themselves wearing their timepieces in front of landmarks and post them on watch forums. Would I become one of them? I ducked into a Pakistani place to eat a quail, but was worried about splashing grease on the vegetable-tanned natural-leather strap. The dial was champagne-colored, with an unexpected circle of neon orange around the seconds’ subdial. (“These are wild colors but in homeopathic doses,” one of Nomos’s marketing texts reads.) The Minimatik’s lugs—the four parts that extend from the case and connect the watch to either a strap or a bracelet—were contoured and feminine, as was the gently domed sapphire crystal, a sharp rebuke to the dinner-plate aesthetic you see on so many watches meant for men. Nomos does not market its watches to either gender—their relatively small size is meant both for women and for men with nothing to prove. The hour markers were pearled, and milled into the champagne dial to pick up its brass hue. The watch seemed to absorb and reflect light in its own way, storing it under its arched sapphire, making it golden.

I took the watch off and turned it over. Some of the more interesting watches have an exhibition-case back, allowing you to see the inner workings. The Nomos calibre, assembled almost entirely from hundreds of minuscule parts made in Germany, is a riot of sunburst decoration, tempered blue screws, and a small constellation of rubies. A tiny golden balance wheel spins back and forth, regulating the time (think of a pendulum swinging on a grandfather clock, but at a tremendously fast clip), and this action, to many viewers, gives the watch the appearance of being alive. It is not uncommon for some watch enthusiasts to call this part of the watch its “heart,” or even its “soul.” The Nomos was not a quartz watch built by robots in a giant Asian factory. A German man or woman with real German problems had constructed this piece, blue screw by blue screw.

I was obsessed. And I had time to indulge my obsession. I believe that a novelist should write for no more than four hours a day, after which returns truly diminish; this, of course, leaves many hours for idle play and contemplation. Usually, such a schedule results in alcoholism, but sometimes a hobby comes along, especially in middle age. For us so-called W.I.S., or Watch Idiot Savants, all roads led to one Internet site: Hodinkee, the name being a slightly misspelled take on hodinky, the Czech word for “watch.” Hours of my days were now spent refreshing the site, looking at elaborate timepieces surrounded by wrist hair and Brooks Brothers shirt cuffs, and learning an entirely new language and nomenclature. By this point, it was becoming clear that Donald Trump would be the Republican nominee. Hodinkee became a natural refuge, a place where I could watch videos of celebrity Watch Idiot Savants talking about their obsession in terms that made me feel less obsessive myself. The rapper Pras, of Fugees fame: “I think about my watches. Like when I get up in the morning.”

Hodinkee is the brainchild of Ben Clymer, a thirty-four-year-old watch impresario. In the outside world, no one really understood me, or the value of tempered blue screws. My sister-in-law pointed out, not incorrectly, that I might be suffering a midlife crisis. But, in Watch World, you enter a room and everybody wants to discuss micro-rotors with you. As Cara Barrett, one of the few women writers on Hodinkee’s staff, told me, “Micro-rotors are pretty damn adorable.”

At Hodinkee’s headquarters, which occupy a loft space in Nolita, every object is tasteful, much like the twenty-some mostly young people working there. In addition to publishing the most passionate watch journalism on the Web (and the most incensed readers’ comments), the site sells its own watchbands and vintage watches. Hodinkee’s statistics reflect the often rarefied world of watch collecting. The average visitor has an income of three hundred thousand dollars, owns five to seven watches, and buys two or three more a year at an average cost of seven thousand dollars each.

I spoke with Clymer at Hodinkee’s offices. After I launched into a long soliloquy on a certain Zenith gold-filled chronograph, he said to me, “Wow, you’re in deep.” I took this as a huge compliment, but it was also a sign of how my life was unravelling. Hillary Clinton had just collapsed at the 9/11 ceremony, FiveThirtyEight was showing the election tightening, and my shrink—also a watch nut—had just been telling me about the toll the election was taking on his patients. Yes, I was in deep, but weren’t we all? A dear friend of mine who lives in Putin’s Russia collects high-end shaving supplies. He once spent part of a visit to New York on the trail of some kind of badger-hair brush. I remembered all those old Soviet-era Russians humming math problems in their heads or playing twelve hours of competitive chess with themselves. In a society hopeless and cruel, the particular and the microscopic were the only things that could still prove reliable.

Clymer is preternaturally calm and sumptuously bearded, a self-described “old soul,” who ticks as reliably as a chronometer granted the all-important Geneva Seal. The origin story of his watch obsession begins with a grandfather he called Papa, whose urbane New York tastes he admired as a kid growing up in snowy suburban Rochester, and whose gift to his grandson of an Omega Speedmaster “inspired me to do the whole thing.” Clymer also started out with what has been called “the collecting gene.” He wore a Volkswagen Beetle costume for his fifth birthday and collected old Bakelite rotary phones, which he bought at fifty cents apiece. His personal collection of watches is impressive—for example, a gold Patek Philippe with the Golden Rule inscribed on its dial, which Lyndon Johnson gave to his allies and underlings—and he has likely made a small fortune from buying and selling timepieces over the years, but he’s also harnessed nostalgia in a way that feels real.

Hodinkee’s influence is felt throughout the watch industry. Clymer has helped Jerry Seinfeld and Jay Z pick out their wrist wear (Jay Z wanted “the least rapper watch possible”). The shrinking size of some of the more intriguing watches for men can, arguably, be traced back to Hodinkee and its assault on what some in the watch world call “penis-extenders”—those overwrought testosterone timepieces pumped out by newer brands like Hublot, but also by old stalwarts like Patek and Rolex. If you want a watch that looks like a Russian oligarch just curled up around your wrist and died, you might be interested in the latest model of Rolex’s Sky-Dweller.

As the election approached, I started going to meetings of the Horological Society of New York. On the streets of Manhattan, I never have any idea which celebrity is which—they all seem to be Matt Damon—but at the Horological Society I could identify all my new heroes, many with full, Portlandian beards, across the vast hall of the library of the General Society of Mechanics and Tradesmen, in midtown, while they waited in line for their free coffee and Royal Dansk butter cookies. There was the nattily dressed Kiran Shekar—yes, the Kiran Shekar, noted collector, author, and proprietor of the independent watch purveyor Contrapante. I ran over to introduce myself and a few moments later he gave me his watch to hold, and a few weeks later he arranged for me to attend the secret RedBar, a meeting of the watch elect, at a bar in Koreatown. You need a regular to invite you to a meeting, and the idea that I could be welcomed into this exclusive world kept me from sleeping. I lay in bed practicing what I might say about “perlage,” “three-quarter plates,” and the rare lapis-lazuli dials on some seventies Rolex Datejusts.

At the gathering of the RedBar Crew, there was a Brooklyn watchmaker’s apprentice from Australia, a woman from Latin America carefully taking pictures of a prized Rolex Daytona, a guy from Helsinki with his own brand of massive watches, and a young man with a hundred-and-fifty-dollar Citizen. No watch is rejected here, and there is no hierarchy. Just as at the Horological Society, the attendees skew young, a surprise considering youth’s supposed slavishness to all things digital, and there are a growing number of women—RedBar’s chief operating officer is the collector Kathleen McGivney. There was a boozy meat-market scene in the rest of the bar, which was filled with loud music and twentysomething Koreans on the make. But, in the section reserved for the W.I.S. crowd, we sipped whiskey as we stripped off our watches in our small brightly lit safe space. I threw my Nomos on a long covered table and an exuberantly bearded dude pawed at it while I got my hands on a cheap but sturdy Seiko diver and an “honest” Omega Speedmaster. Swiss luxury watches may be made with the one per cent in mind, but true aficionados know that the hegemony of the Swiss is over; some of the most interesting watches now come from German brands like Nomos and A. Lange and Japan’s Grand Seiko. I missed out on the culmination of the evening, when all the watches were piled up for an Instagram photo with the hashtag #sexpile, but as I wandered into the autumn night my Nomos beat warmly against my wrist.

In October, my feelings of dread spiked, and so I decided to buy a Rolex. Not a new one, of course, but something vintage—in this case, an Air-King from the seventies. I spotted one on the site of a dealer from Boston. It had a perfect “bluejean” dial and well-preserved hands, and a brown leather strap that I knew would contrast perfectly with the blue dial, as if my whole world were just cool and casual and everything was going to be O.K. After it arrived, I got in touch with Eric Wind, one of the top watch experts at Christie’s, who told me that the dial was indeed rare and the hands “extraordinary.” But, as I suspected, the case had been overpolished, because the lugs were too sharp and thin. (“Thick, beefy lugs” is a mantra for watch collectors; and most would prefer a scuffed “honest” case over something buffed and shiny.) Still, Wind valued the watch at about six hundred and fifty dollars more than I’d paid for it—my first potential profit as a Watch Idiot Savant.

I started looking at the Air-King’s frantic second hand for hours, and listening to its serious ticking, which sounded like a surly boxer before the first round. When I was a kid, in the eighties, Rolex was shorthand for “yuppie.” To console myself that I had not become one, I thought of all the rap lyrics featuring the brand. “Girl you look fine / like a wide-face Rolex, you just shine,” Biggie Smalls rapped on “Fuck You Tonight.” “They took my rings, they took my Rolex,” Warren G commiserates with Nate Dogg on “Regulate.” “I looked at the brotha, said ‘Damn, what’s next?’ ”

At a lecture that Jack Forster, Hodinkee’s editor-in-chief, gave at the Horological Society, a photograph of a lonely Antarctic research station flashed on the projection screen. Speaking of its inhabitants, Forster said, “In Antarctica, there is no time except from the civilization that sent them there.” He went on to discuss the very subjectivity of time. “A month is not the same month from one month to the next. A year isn’t.” I looked into the reassuring deep blue of my old Rolex. I’m familiar with the concept of leap years, of course, but Forster was saying that no one month, year, minute, hour is exactly, perfectly equivalent to any other. What hope do we have of regulating our lives, if time itself is an unsturdy, possibly political construct?

“There’s something very mournful about watches,” Forster told me, after the lecture. When I got home, I checked my Air-King and Nomos and Junghans against the atomic clock of time.gov. The Nomos had lost five seconds in the previous twenty-four hours, the Junghans close to ten, and the Rolex had gained fifteen. It took an average of three timepieces to tell the actual time. We were using watches to calculate our own demise, and we weren’t even doing it accurately.

A few days later, over oysters and gluten-free Martinis, I pressed Forster on what I could do to end my expensive new hobby. He shrugged and swallowed a bivalve. Of collectors, he said, “There’s some pocket of rot in the oak of their soul that can only be patched up by watches.”

After Trump won, I went to Germany—specifically, to Glashütte, in the remote Müglitz Valley, in Saxony, between Dresden and Prague, where my Nomos Minimatik was born. The journey from Dresden by suburban train took me past churches and boxy G.D.R.-era dachas, a perfect Russian motif for a city that once hosted the budding K.G.B. spy Vladimir Putin. Glashütte, where German watchmakers began working in the nineteenth century, is now home to at least eight companies. The town, surrounded by the Ore Mountains, appears suddenly, its train platform hugged by buildings of cement, steel, and glass. Glashütte does not have so much as a proper restaurant, although every Tuesday a chicken man comes with a truck full of roasting birds, and pensioners dutifully line up as if the Berlin Wall had never fallen.

“Caring for machines is as essential as caring for yourself,” an old East German poster proclaims in one of Nomos’s workspaces. The company operates out of Glashütte’s old train station, and also a well-kept building stuffed with the latest Vitra furniture, situated on a hill overlooking the town. (There is also a design bureau in Berlin, on the Landwehr Canal.) The watches are marketed not to the one per cent but to the creative classes. “If an editor’s career is on the rise,” a German publishing friend said, “they’ll get a Nomos.”

“Too many Swiss watch companies have become M.B.A.’d and are run like Procter & Gamble,” the watch collector Kiran Shekar had told me in New York. Nomos is the opposite of that. And there is a political element, too. Saxony has not been immune to the racist stirrings of the Alternative für Deutschland party, challenging Angela Merkel’s ruling coalition. When an AfD march was planned for Glashütte, the company put up a sign reading, in German, “We tick internationally. No to right-wing propaganda. Yes to tolerance and cosmopolitanism, and to people who need our help now.”

Visiting a watch manufactory is a soothing experience during chaotic times, and the painfully slow assembly of these beautiful objects may well fall under the heading of “God’s work.” At the Nomos workshop, a monastic silence prevailed as men and women (there are more of the latter than the former) sat at desks, wearing what looked like pink finger condoms and sifting through parts, some of them thinner than a human hair. The work is difficult and takes a toll. Because their hands need to be steady, watchmakers cannot drink profusely. According to Nadja Weisweiler, who works for the German retailer and watch manufacturer Wempe, they are encouraged to take up musical instruments or horseback riding. I observed with special delight as a watchmaker inserted a balance wheel into a new watch, and it came to life for the first time.

At Nomos, the dignity of work is still celebrated, and the company provides an example of what a creative manufacturing workplace can look like at a time when making things is rarely the province of humans. Nomos’s design bureau, in Berlin, is light-filled and cheery. The minimally bearded designers turn to everyday objects for inspiration. “We’re recoding heritage with contemporary influences from Berlin,” one of them told me. The neon orange that adds such cosmopolitan charm to my Minimatik, for example, came from the orange of warning signs seen in technical instruments and on the streets of the city. The avant-garde fonts for the numbers on the dial are stretched and opened up for better legibility. The intelligence of the design never proclaims the watch to be anything more than an instrument. “We know there are more important things than watches,” Judith Borowski, the company’s chief brand officer, said. “Like people suffering around the world.”

Nomos is doing well. The company’s sales increased by more than twenty per cent over the previous year, while the Swiss watch industry is suffering, in part because of the decline of several important markets, such as China and Russia, and, at a certain level, the preponderance of smart watches like Apple’s. Because Nomos aims for a younger demographic, its C.E.O., Uwe Ahrendt, is optimistic. “The good thing about smart watches is that young people started caring about their wrists again,” he told me in Glashütte. “They’ll start off with a smart watch and then they’ll switch to mechanical.”

After visiting Nomos, I crossed the road to A. Lange & Söhne. Ferdinand Adolph Lange, the godfather of German watchmaking, founded the company in 1845, as part of a Saxon king’s anti-poverty measures. The region was chiefly known for mining, but it was also famous for basket-weaving, and the dexterity required for that was used to make precise ticking things. After the Second World War, the Soviets nationalized the company and carted the best equipment off to Russia. Walter Lange, the great-grandson of Ferdinand, was about to be conscripted to work in an East German uranium mine, when he fled to the West. In 1990, after the Wall fell and when Lange was sixty-six years old, he returned to Glashütte and brought the company back to life. The new watches were soon beloved, especially by collectors who didn’t care about Lange’s pricing (entry-level Langes start at nearly fifteen thousand dollars, which some people consider a bargain).

In contrast to the freewheeling Nomos, Lange has an air of secrecy and tradition. To enter the inner sanctum, I had to surrender my phone and put on a lab coat. Lange’s timepieces are beautiful in an eerie way that collapses the differences between centuries, speaking to a world interrupted and then, against all odds, resumed. The watchmakers use gold chatons with steel screws to hold down the rubies that act as a lubrication system for the watch. There is absolutely no need for gold chatons at this point—the technology has moved on—but Lange insists on using them.




Walter Lange died this year, at the age of ninety-two, and the success of his company can be seen as a form of revenge against the totalitarian Soviet interregnum. The results are almost perversely opulent. Parts of the mechanism are finished by hand but are never meant to be seen by the owner; only the watchmaker and subsequent watch repairers will see the work in full. When I look at the back of a Datograph, one of Lange’s more complicated watches (it features a date as well as a chronograph, a kind of stopwatch), I see a small city of silver and gold gears and wheels, a miniature three-dimensional universe in which everyone is running to catch the next bus. If only our own daily exertions could be so purposeful and ornate. If only watches could do what they so slyly promise. To record. To keep track. To bring order.

As the Inauguration approached, I bought another watch. I knew I had to stop, but I had an excuse. I desperately needed a waterproof watch for swimming, my only form of exercise. By my hopeless logic, the watch would make me healthier. I went to Wempe’s emporium on Fifth Avenue, which is just a few doors down from Trump Tower, and feels like a meditation on the calmness of wood and the serenity of the color beige. It was early in the day, but already some gentlemen had stumbled in for their watch-fondling. “Tell me which watch you like and I’ll tell you how long I have to work for it,” one man was telling his five-year-old son. I was served an espresso and a Lindt chocolate by a young man who also presented me with a Tudor Heritage Black Bay 36, a glowing black-dial water-resistant watch bearing the famous “snowflake” hour hand of Tudor (a sister company of Rolex). I bought it, whereupon a small bottle of Veuve Clicquot was opened, and although the iconic snowflake hand was still two hours short of noon, I drank it down to the last. In total, I had now given up 10.1 days of artistic freedom to four watches in the course of less than a year.

Hodinkee invited me to a secret event at an undisclosed location. A black Lincoln MKT picked me up and half an hour later we arrived at a swish bar in midtown. Meanwhile, twenty-one of the world’s most significant watch collectors were making similar, if longer, journeys, from as far away as London and Los Angeles. They had no idea what awaited them. At the bar, Ben Clymer unveiled the project that Hodinkee had been working on for more than a year. The company had taken a famous Vacheron Constantin watch known as the Cornes de Vache (its lugs are shaped like cow horns), swapped out the platinum or the rose gold for humble steel, switched the white or silvered dial for a slate-gray one, and changed the tachymeter scale on the rim of the dial, which measures distance or speed, for a pulsation scale, which helps measure the beating of the human heart.

Vacheron Constantin is a storied Swiss maison (Napoleon wore one of its watches). Amid the aah-ing of the audience, I ran over to be the first to feel metal against flesh. Collectors gathered around, taking snaps of the watch on my wrist. The atmosphere simmered with the strange happiness of our little world, the feeling of being finally at the right place, if maybe not in the right time. The price of the watch was forty-five thousand dollars, and only thirty-six of them would be available for sale. Momentarily, I reviewed my finances. What if . . .

Shortly afterward, I met with a well-known collector and the editor of the watch site TimeZone who goes by the nom de plume William Massena, an ursine man with a strong Continental accent and even stronger horological opinions (“I used to get death threats!”). The timepieces in his collection were subtle yet striking. As Massena showed me the gorgeous faded-brown dial of a Rolex Submariner, akin to a model issued to members of the British Navy, I told him how I had got into watches at the start of 2016, when our nation was vulnerable but still whole. “Ah,” he said, in a burst of European pragmatism, “but you are a little Russian émigré. You know if you need to you can put these watches in your pocket and sneak across the border to Canada past Buffalo. And you can survive.”

A memory arrived unbidden. The year was 1978, and my family and I were at Pulkovo Airport, in Leningrad, about to become Soviet refugees in America. A stern customs officer took off my furry shapka and poked at the still warm lining, looking for diamonds my parents might have hidden there. A six-year-old is humiliated, but perhaps a lesson is learned. What if we had stashed away some diamonds and somehow got them through to freedom? In talking to collectors, I have heard the tale of a grandfather who was able to escape Occupied France because he gave a gold Omega to a stationmaster. Is this it, then? Is that what my obsession is about?

I will stop buying watches. But allow me one last purchase. It comes, via eBay, from San Luis Potosí, a city in north-central Mexico. It is a Casio H-108 12-Melody-Alarm, the kind I had lost to the Hebrew-school bully and my grandmother had reclaimed. The watch feels small, digital, innocent. It dutifully plays all the songs I remember. The word “happy” appears in eighties letters as the birthday song plays. And, for a moment, I am. 

Gary Shteyngart is the author of “Absurdistan,” “Super Sad True Love Story,” and “Little Failure,” a memoir. More
This article appears in other versions of the March 20, 2017, issue, with the headline “Time Out.”